Not sure what to think.......

So I get on the scale this morning and it reads 182.5, not sure if I can believe it. OK, I haven't weighed in for 3 weeks but I haven't really been watching what I eat, except for the past week, I have been pretty good. I started my new gym routine and I seem to like it, waking up at my normal time, going to the gym and then getting to work an hour later than normal. The bad part was going to the gym yesterday, 20 minutes on the treadmill and then 20 minutes working on my arms and shoulders then having to bowl last night. By the third game that ball was so heavy it wasn't funny but I think I bowled a 147 that game.......not bad!!!! Well, I will keep doing what I have been doing and the scale will tell if this weeks weigh in was a fluke!!!

Anybody out there....??

Sorry, I know that I've been MIA for awhile - with the start of school/work, I've been in a funk and that has most definitely affected my game plan.  I don't like the job I have, which I took after getting laid off from the worlds most perfect job for a working Mom, but this year I especially hate what I'm doing (after a great year last year).  So, I've been wallowing for awhile.  I took this job in hopes that it would lead to an office position, but I don't think that will ever happen and I think it's time to look for something else - but, then that brings up all sorts of issues, like I don't want to work full time yet and what do I about the summer and school breaks?  So, do I just deal with being bored, miserable and making no money because it's better for Con in the long run?  I don't know.  But, I hate dreading going to work, I hate people watching me to make sure PA stuff doesn't interfere with my job (which it always does) and losing the flexibility I had last year IF PA stuff did interfere.  180 days of work doesn't sound like a lot, but it is when you are unhappy....  So, I've been depressed and miserable and that has equalled not watching what I've been eating and no walking.  I don't know what to do about facing a miserable year, but I do know that sabotaging my own plan isn't really productive.

So, moving on - time to get back on track.  But, where the heck is everyone else?  No updates, no reports, no weigh in's....hello????   Ka', how have you been doing - and where is your victory post about your shopping experience?  Laurie - weigh in?  How are you doing??  Jess - have you gotten started with South Beach yet?  Any weigh in's??

C'mon, post - share- encourage!!!  Let's go!  Hmmm....we should meet to walk, too, especially now that it's supposed to cool off....we could always go to track one night, right???

As Conor used to say "How you doin'?"  :)  Let's motivate!! 

Quote "If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten"

So, unless this is the best you want, it's time to shake it up!  :)

PS

This may be TMI but... I pulled my pants up and down without unbuttoning them today! That is my gauge on doing well. When I am losing they slide up or down without the aid of the button. If I am staying/gaining I must button/unbutton.

YAY!

URG!!!!!!

I have been stressing a lot lately. That means I have been stress eating a lot lately. I have been sad a lot lately. That means I have been emotionally eating. A few good things have happened lately, which means I have been celebrating lately.

These are things I need to work on getting in check. A cookie may make me feel better for that moment, but will not in the long run. Actually, that damn cookie winds up causing me more stress and sadness down the road. And whatever I am celebrating tends to be overshadowed by the "Uh, I am not fitting into anything and have nothing to wear" feeling.

I have been getting myself ready to start doing the South Beach Diet. It may sound weird to have to get yourself "ready". But, there are so many things I need to start incorporating in, and just as many that I need to take out, of my diet at first that it actually takes some planning. Sitting down and making a menu for the first two weeks (a throwback to my mom!) was fun and exciting and actually got me pumped to start. However, I have this stupid mindset that I MUST get rid of. It keeps telling me (especially when we go out) "Oh, well eat what you want now because the diet starts on Sunday!" Why do I sabotage myself like that? Why give myself more work to do.

And that makes me sad too... Think I'll have... A CUP OF TEA! :)

The more things change...

The more they stay the same....and that's where I am now, staying the same.  I am momentarily feeling frustrated and discouraged, but the saner part of me will soon take over and commence with pep talks, etc.  But for now, I'm annoyed - no change on the scale from last week.  Argh.  Argh. Groan. Whine.  I know the biggest problem is coming back from vacation, no matter how small, and getting back into a routine.  I didn't track everything and I haven't walked all week.  I can come up with a 1,000 excuses but excuses won't get the job done - and you know what?  I know better.  Much better.  I've been here before.  I will say that one issue for me is counting calories - after years of WW's and thinking in points, it's been hard for me to adjust to calories.  The program that I use gives me 1,376 calories a day for a weight loss target of 1.5 lbs per week.  If I exercise, I can eat the calories burned if I want (sometimes I do, sometimes I don't).  Those calories go fast.   For example, one day last week I had my coffee (with real milk), a package of hostess 100 cal crumb cakes at about 9, cheerios with 1% milk at around 11:30, a tablespoon of pb on light wheat bread around 2 pm, and a package of hostess 100 calorie cup cakes at around 4:30 - eating every few hours keeps me from feeling hungry and it doesn't seem like it was alot - but, that was was almost half my calories for the day, leaving me with about 650 for dinner and night snacks (because I am a night snacker and need to leave some calories for that).   So, I need to think of my calories like a bank and think of ways to make smaller withdrawals (use less calories).  Of course, I do know that fruit and veggies would be less calories and more filling, but I'm still a work in progress there - I can't force myself to eat what I don't like, that would only make this whole process so much harder.  I can keep trying, though, and I will.

So much of weight loss is mental and can be such a head game.  But, I will say that I went out with some co-workers and one, who is a few years older than me, has been doing WW's and working out at the gym religiously - she looks AMAZING.  Everyone was complimenting her on how awesome she looked.  And you know what?  I am willing to admit that I am vain enough to want to be her - I want those commpliments and I want to feel proud of what I've accomplished.  And that is just one more thing that will keep me on this path - yes, good health is the real payoff, but a "wow, you look amazing" never hurts!!  :)

A little better..........

Well, I will say it wasn't my best eating week but also not the worst. I have been feeling miserable the last 2 days, (summer allergies, cold......who knows) so there was no walking. On the good side......I did lose weight this week. Eventhough my eating wasn't great I was watching portion control!!!! Lost 1.5 lbs, no the trick is to keep it off, lose a little more and not gain any back! Luckily my birthday is next Friday, so after I weigh myself I can indulge that day and get back on track on Saturday!!! I see a drink and cake in my future!!!! Well, I hope you all had good weeks as well!!!

Short but sweet....

Well, we are already home from vacation - so short, but so wonderful!  I did jump on the scale today and it says that I am up 2 lbs but I am not concerned - first, that time of the month decided to arrive yesterday (sorry, TMI for any guys reading this - but, hey, get 5 women together and this is what you are going to get!)  Second, I didn't really eat that off track and we walked our butts off - my steps since Thursday are:

Thursday         11,253    (3006 aerobic)
Friday             16,288    (5153 aerobic)
Saturday          18,512    (6398 aerobic)
Sunday            15.511    (6199 aerobic)
Monday           10,729    (4177 aerobic)

So, if anything, I am at least proud of all the walking we did!  I know the scale will work itself out by WI in on Friday.  I am not totally on track for my first goal and that does concern me a little bit, so I need to find a way to kick things up a notch.  Overall, though, vacation was what it should have been and I am good with that.  I think I might go to the track tonight to walk, if anyone wants to come along...  :)  Have a great day, make good choices and smile because you know you are in control and a month from now, will be celebrating how successful you've been!